just fucking stop it! i shouldn’t have to hear this! this is the kind of thing that you just don’t tell me. you are meant to keep this to yourself and carry the burden on your own, and its meant to terrify you and keep you from sleeping and that is hard but its just what your meant to do. because i am not an adult and you are! and i shouldn’t have to feel gut wrenching fear over something i didn’t cause and i cant control and something that is way beyond the responsibly i should have. cant you see i am already drowning in my own little world of petty teenage things that don’t matter. how am i even meant to process this? how am i meant to handle something so grown up and real? just because you never babied me or mothered me that does not change the fact that you are my parent and this is not the kind of this you fucking put on a 16 year old.
if my life has to be this hard right now, there must be something good waiting for me in the future.
i feel like almost every single relationship on my life is me giving and the other person taking. i’m the needy one, they’re all just being polite. i am so unwanted.
